| yep, I've turned into that guy who always starts his posts with something to the effect of "I'm never on here anymore..."
I had breakfast with my guys this morning. I'm learning to love them so much.
All of the anger, hatred, and pain in my heart is being revealed and uprooted. slowly but surely
So painful...wickedness is so destructive
it saps the life out of our pursuit of God
we get so far down Doing All the Right Things Road
never realizing that our passion and fire have long since died out since we turned off of Romance Avenue
We didn't even realize that we had stopped traveling down Pursuit Boulevard
Now we're deep in the heart of the Land of Legalism with no clue how we got there or how to get out
death is painful
but necessary
but painful
If our walk with God is to be anything but ordinary, we must live a life that is anything but ordinary.
That's what I'm learning. After I returned from Christmas break, I wrote on a post-it note and stuck it to my computer to look at everyday. It says "Contentment will be your undoing"
And so it has been.
I have grown content
content to have an average relationship with God (not possible, by the way)
Discouragement
Being Overwhelmed
Loss of Focus
that has been the fruit
the story isn't over...it is just beginning...
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| I mostly facebook nowadays...sorry that my posts are so few and far between.
right now I'm learning what it means that I don't have any wisdom of my own
I'm really tired of teaching all of these classes in which I have no idea what to share
week after week
weak after weak
Jesus,
I'm not sure what I'm doing here
but you do
and that's all I need to know
so I'll press on
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| all but one of them are gone...Mitch leaves early tomorrow morning then it'll just be me and the Augusts
I still can't really believe that this day has finally come. I still remember two years ago when God told me that I was going to be a Core Advisor. It didn't seem possible. Yet there they are. James and David (and possibly Mitch) are coming back as GIs up North. Jonny is going to be on Ministry Team. Wow.
I miss them all
a great deal
the January's in my RD group...Mitch, David, Gabe, Nate, Jonny, James, and Marcus.
I love them so
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| this...is an emotional week
 
my boys are graduating on Saturday...this is a heart-wrenching experience for myself. Though half of them are coming back in January and I get to continue being their RD which pleases me greatly.
*sigh* graduation...pretty much my least favorite day of the year!
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| just finished the Fasting LTE with the interns
I wasn't going to do it with them
but Friday morning I decided to
it was good
I worked on Friday and had lots of homework this weekend
not quite your ordinary fasting LTE
but I think that made it better
it was normal life and I still met with the Lord
I read Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer
good stuff
"Self is the opaque veil that hides the face of God from us. It can be removed only in spiritual experience, never by mere instruction. We may as well try to instruct leprosy out of our system."
Pretty much sums up what I'm learning right now.
my guys are awesome (I'm meeting with them in 13 minutes)
I played basketball with this guy this morning
it was good
I was eight points behind but then we decided that next point won
I made the next point
it was good
This is my life
I'm learning how to be Son of the King first
Resident Director second
it's hard
but not optional
My name is James Warren Jones the third
and i am undone
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